You know, as much as you want me to be at home this week, I wanted to be at home too. I wanted to meet you and those guys. But you see, you are making me feel like a damn idiot if you keep ignoring me. Is that way of ignoring me makes you feel satisfied enough? Is it? I'm done with all of your cold treatments. I just don't understand. Was the 'I love you' is a lie or what? Are you trying to make fun of me? Are you trying to make me cry or what? For the million time I asked, did you really love me? Did you? You don't know how much pain you have added in me. Do you think it's pretty well living in this dammit cruel world? No- its not. You don't need to feel that way since you got your damn brothers and your parent cares about you. At least you got your mum to hug everyday. I do jealous. But I threw that away since I got you to hug. You are here with me; yet you even care much. I feel so loved, and your warmness making my heart fluttered for god sake. I don't care about the parent issues since you guys are there with me; even though you hurt me for a fucking infinity times. I love the way you care and all. You got to understand me, Syarif. I'm tired of crying and all. And you don't even gave a single shits about this. At least, Leya do care. thats why she is cute. nazril was lucky to have her. At least, I got a day off tomorrow and I will be having fun, otp or whatsover with you, Syarif. At least, Syarif. At least. I told you. I will be back as usual. don't make me waiting and scared. I just love you so much that I can't bear this shits by myself.